The Beginning of Something Beautiful

Hello there!

Super excited to begin this new adventure the Lord is taking me on! I figured the most appropriate way to start this blog would be to explain why I am even starting something like this in the first place. As some of you may know, I was homeschooled my entire life until college. I always gravitated and excelled in literature because I LOVE writing! I mean for real, I could write an entire paper in a couple of hours. I love the freedom that writing gives, I can express who I am through a bunch of words to make a story. I have been told by many (including my husband) that I am more of a figurative writer who enjoys a very very VERY detailed story that completely captures the audience. Well, I have quite a lot of free time on my hands since I am currently a newlywed homemaker, so I figured why not start up something I am passionate about? So here we are!

Homeschool Era College Era Wifey Era

To fully explain why I am starting this blog, I feel like you have to get to know my background a little bit. If I could define my past identity in one word it would be school. Why school? Well, I am one of THOSE students who are continuously seeking perfection. I want to be the best of the best, not for other people, but for my own standards. Before college, I prided myself in my homeschool education, and in college, I prided myself in how busy and successful I was in my studies. I am a busybody, so it makes sense that I would pile on tons of classes and different majors to keep myself on the go at all times. When you think about it, school is a massive portion of all our lives, especially if you go to college and law school. Naturally, I think a lot of us place our identity in how well we perform, whether that is at work, school, being a mom, or a stay-at-home wife. We have gone through our childhood being placed or recognized for how well we performed in school. So of course, when I graduated college in May of 2023, I felt completely lost when I didn't have school! I am in my gap year between my undergraduate career and law school in the Fall of 2024. One whole year. It didn't seem that long when I thought about how much I had during this gap year, like a mission trip to Albania, getting married, moving to Charlotte, and applying to law schools. I thought pshhh there will be lots to keep me occupied. Boy, was I wrong! Two weeks in Charlotte, and I was itching to go back to school. I needed to perform well again. I needed to be busy again. I needed to work so hard that I was exhausted again. I NEEDED school!

I have loved being married to my best friend and starting a life together, but who am I without school? Well, that is EXACTLY why I am starting up something like this! I realized in the last few months that I had no hobbies, I had no desire to have hobbies because school and sports were my life. Here I am on a new path re-discovering my love for old and new things! Here I am having to re-learn my definition of "fun". Of course, I would love to tell you all that oh married life is fantastic and my life is amazing in every way, but that would not be very authentic of me. Both my husband and I came into this marriage as sinners with different burdens, and that does NOT change just because we got married! I gotta say, my husband is truly amazing for loving me through my baggage and burdens. Married life may not be perfect, but it is such a joy to live and be one with my best friend! My husband has been such an encourager during my searching season. He encouraged me to find specific things I am passionate about and put my talents to use!

My Wonderful Husband<3

I have struggled with depression since I was 12 years old (A story I plan on sharing with you all in the future!), and I have had a very difficult time in Charlotte because I have no friends, we have no community yet, and we are just now getting involved regularly in a Church. My husband knows my depression can come and go in large waves, and he is so so patient with me. But one thing that he suggested to me was to start a blog. He was brainstorming with me one day on things I am passionate about and I said "Jesus, people, mentorship, and authenticity". When he suggested a blog, I thought no one would want to read what I had to say, but the more I prayed about it, the more peace and excitement I gained from it.

This leads me to my final explanation of why am I doing this??? Let me just say that the Lord is SO GOOD! In this season, I have learned so much about who God is and what He has for me. My season of questioning and depression has led to stronger faith and joy like I have never experienced before, and I cannot help but share that! The Lord has taught me to be still (something I never really learned to do). He has taught me to be content in my season of quietness because He wants ME, He desires my unconditional love for Him, and He is knocking down and rebuilding a portion of my identity, busyness, and perfection. I have found joy in being a stay-at-home wife, and know that the Lord simply wants me to slow down and love my husband well during this season. So, I started making some videos on Instagram and TikTok on date nights, devotions, and recipes. Now, I am creating this blog as a way to encourage other Christian women in their role, in the chaos or the quietness of their lives, and to be authentic about my own life and walk with Christ! I hope this gives you all good insight into my why behind the what BUT if you have more questions for me OR you want a specific topic discussed, please feel free to comment or contact me with ideas!